Living on a prayer

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61367362011-04-21T15:33:54.334-07:00Living on a prayeri dont know why people would want to read this .. but i'm writing just the sameAkshay Saxenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14543000934436301940noreply@blogger.comBlogger311100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6136736.post-1095183532155884632004-09-14T10:38:00.000-07:002004-09-14T10:38:52.156-07:00

If you ever looked into the sky And stared at it long and good You'd begin to understand why Atleast, i hope you could Why I weep today. Each time you smile at the clouds Fluffy white, innocent gay. Remember that as soon as you gasp aloud They shall shroud themselves in grey. And mock you as they leave you wet Blue, as the sky on a summer day.

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I made a choice.. and left behind all these little things that seemed so important to me.. forever perhaps. I still think about them, of how important they seemed then.. of how i relished the thought of living the life i could probably have led.. and then i scoff.nothing matters.. now.. nothing at all. anything i left behind was worth the feeling of being special to some people

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promise to teach bum basky next sem. we shall wake up in mornings and play. and bum shall wake me up!this is on the insistance of the great bum himself

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why why

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a long walk.. down the seine.. a long talk that was supposed to work miracles long sentences that made sense only to me. and a glaring realisation that i am just the same and shall forever be in the company true friends like a chld helpless and insecure

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on my sitehomepages.iitb.ac.in/~asaxena

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not working.. so shall post this herevaise this is my sad wierded (copyright dixi) blogi write crap here.. for myselfhaan.. had the most amazing barbecue dinner.. ate 5 steaks.. am feeling so fulfilled.. also the bloody germany loss made me remember basky inter iiti believe that the most powerful emotion i have ever experienced has been at these meets.. and i want to complete the cycle with joy

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why can i not make up my mind.yes it is important enough to ponder overand maybe i should.. logic.. one path.. could be taken.. done and dustedwhatever else (which is most of me) .. another .. which i know i shall takethat one mistake could cost you so dear.. or was it a mistake at all..just utterances of a confused mindplease to ignore

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You return oh cloud of doubtand bring with you shadows that i long left behindas you hang me at the gallowsNot one bright ray can i findthe joy i once knew,from the clarity of my mindlies slain, twisted askewin a pool of its own bloodThe bloodRed, in its brightnesswrought bt my clarity of thoughtand now red in deathdead forever, to count for noughttell me, please do,if i shall forever wearthis

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anna janki.. janki.. pronounced junky.. what a junky name i say. i like indian names.. they have meaning. I am indestructable person u know. dont know why i wrote that just did

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he does not blog.. i was too lazy to put description.. this is by Dopu It was out of this fucking world!! :D, most amazing thing ever. Had a total blast. So here is full narration The concert was hapenning at Munich Olympic stadium, which itself is a work of art. Looks amazing and the place around it is also beautiful with a manmade lake around as well. So neways, we started off for the

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is a great release. and i am good at houework.. nice housewife i would make :)i spent 3 hours sewing my torn bags together.. something which i have never had much success at. it was more a matter of saving 15 euros and not wasting 600 rupees.. bags ka cost etc.but it was done:) and i shall carry big bag on trek :D or bergsteigen in german :Palso wrte stuff in written diary whic i have resorted to

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my first. in germany.. these are my contact detailsAkshay SaxenaAm Schäferanger 15, Zimmer 121Oberschleißheim, 85764ph: 0049-174-4512064office (12:30am to 9:30 pm ist) 0049-89-289-15669no upsurges of emotion right now.. shall blog later

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its my money aint it my choice if i choose to starve

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i could end it.. yes i could maybe i should it would be better but then i'd die

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the euphoria dies quickly, suddenly revealing to you unblemished skies that haunt you for in their clarity you begin to see the emptiness that belies your very existence here

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am blogging because i'm bored.. am finding out what being lukkha because of running simulations means. also, am beginning to understand why supercomputers are needed.. rather beginning to appreciate should i say. ah.. no thoughts flowing ditch.. shall check if the damn things finished

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i'm sitting all alone in my office.. hungry as hell. i wonder when my guide will come pick me up for dinner. i hope he receives my message on his phone. basically i hope a lot. i hope my simulation works. i hope it gets over with soon. have begun reading roald dahl. awesome.

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it starts... monkey person says it at the start of the lion king video game... am really lonely here.. i guess i've gotten too used to having certain ppl around most of the time.. dont know what to do with my time really.. i'd go out.. but with whom. walking along scenic fields is fun only with certain ppl.. am also working like a dog. also i think for lack of anything to do and also obviously

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blogspot has changed a bit since i was last here i shall write on this blog now... basically a boring blog ..

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have started blogging at www.livejournal.com/~asaxena.. but i dont think i'll close this chapter yet.. so read on Me back in mumbai and back to the grind.. lectures just starting.. mosquitos still biting .. maddoo food is amazing and i should be sleeping so Bye Akshay

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came joint third in JAM.. my first competitive one. Am leaving for home today... MoodI was great.. and my holidays are almost over.. another sem shall begin soon

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MoodI rules!!.. dont know why i dint attend the last two years.. probably because i never had people i really wanted to attend with.. came second in potpourri :D :D :D.. qualified for jam finals. Had the most amazing time at pronites and have fallen in love..... with fusion music i think. Haan me also going to learn to jive Me one happy chappy :D

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Haven't written in a while. That doesn't essentially mean that this will be anything but fart... lost pathetically to maddu day before.. actually had people asking me if we could beat guwahati.. did well against them. crunch match today i feel.. if wee play well today then well... Bring 'em on....

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actually visited exile.ru.. gross site. basky courts getting painted.. so we cant play :(.. played volley instead. was fun. teams have started arriving.. poor kanpur ppl had to put up with dark rooms and no beds.. am actually feeling sorry for them.. par kya karein.. why couldnt these poor ppl have been put up in 12/13.. them being the figgin "pride" of iit.. only the fat babus know it is late..

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Long time since i posted... bloody tired. Attended navy ball yesterday. Food was good, navy queen tatti.. some manasi female did stage show which was good.. and i got to listen to tatti max band called aquaflow. Had a blast.. danced lots.. ate lots.. and came back and slept lots.. missed basky match in the process.. we lost. feel kinda guilty about that.. but ditch. I dont know why i keep

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Wrote this while studying for endsem... between bouts of self hate.. self pity .. and eventually being amused with myself.. Ambition is a strange thing. It grows forever more. You may think you've run out of it, But theres always more in store. You think you know your limits, What you can and can not do. You feel smug with this knowledge, Until it jumps out at you. It doesn't even try to think

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paper went quite horribly.. but just desserts i guess for not studying all sem.. am hoping i get an 8 have holiday before next paper.. so it is good.. also finally got a part in HINDI streetplay :).. have been trying to work off my 'he can only speak english' image (which i built myself.. i think) for some time now... Aur kya... life goes on and on and on I'm lucky i dont hate it

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Chem end sem tomorrow.. god knows how i'll finish portion... Dads birthday today,, wrote poem yesterday.,... so am posting.. notice all the errors? i'm in nbd. My Dearest Papa, Time, it seems, has wings, It flies by unseen, unheard, untouched, Over the plains, over the seas. And all that it leaves behind Are our memories. Memories to be cherished, To be locked away in our heart. Memories of

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hello..... Have absolutely no idea what to write.. my end sems finally kicked off .. what a paper! have hopefully done well.. have written lots of crap over the past year.. so shall post it till i can think of what to do with this page :) Tomorows my dad's birthday.. Happy Birthday Papa! hope you have a wonderful day... FREE I stand alone atop a hill, Alone as I can be, Watching the sun rise

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