Living on a prayer

Sunday, November 30, 2003

Wrote this while studying for endsem... between bouts of self hate.. self pity .. and eventually being amused with myself..

Ambition is a strange thing.
It grows forever more.
You may think you've run out of it,
But theres always more in store.

You think you know your limits,
What you can and can not do.
You feel smug with this knowledge,
Until it jumps out at you.

It doesn't even try to think ,
Spares not one rational thought.
Driving you on to the end of wars,
You shouldnt have even fought.

It makes you life hell.
Saps out your soul.
It brings about feelings fell,
Dark as the darkest coal.
There isnt a bone in your body
That it doesnt leave sore.

Each time it jumps up and bites you,
Sinks its teeth into your heart.
You curse it profanely, you do,
But let it play its part.

Ambition makes you dream,
Of things that you could do.
You may fail miserably,
Yet, it still sticks by you.
Fawning, prodding incessantly,
Making you go beyond all youve ever needed,
Beyond all you choose to see.
Without ambition in your life,
What good would it ever be.

01/12/03





Saturday, November 29, 2003

paper went quite horribly.. but just desserts i guess for not studying all sem.. am hoping i get an 8
have holiday before next paper.. so it is good.. also finally got a part in HINDI streetplay :).. have been trying to work off my 'he can only speak english' image (which i built myself.. i think) for some time now...
Aur kya... life goes on and on and on
I'm lucky i dont hate it

Friday, November 28, 2003

Chem end sem tomorrow.. god knows how i'll finish portion...
Dads birthday today,, wrote poem yesterday.,... so am posting.. notice all the errors? i'm in nbd.

My Dearest Papa,

Time, it seems, has wings,
It flies by unseen, unheard, untouched,
Over the plains, over the seas.
And all that it leaves behind
Are our memories.

Memories to be cherished,
To be locked away in our heart.
Memories of those who love us still,
Who've loved us from the start.

Memories of tiny fingers,
Clenched within your palm.
Of nights we spent beneath the stars,
Over an ocean calm.
Of all the questions i would ask,
Only to ask more.
And how you sat there patiently,
Answering them forever more.

Memories of the joy that ran through me
Each time tou came back home.
From years spent out at sea
Years spent alone.

I may not be there to greet you today,
To celebrate this day with food and wine,
But I shall always have your memories
And you shall have mine.

Dearest Papa
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Love
Akshay

27/11/03

Thursday, November 27, 2003

hello.....
Have absolutely no idea what to write.. my end sems finally kicked off .. what a paper! have hopefully done well.. have written lots of crap over the past year.. so shall post it till i can think of what to do with this page :)

Tomorows my dad's birthday.. Happy Birthday Papa! hope you have a wonderful day...

FREE

I stand alone atop a hill,
Alone as I can be,
Watching the sun rise above,
Its home beneath the sea.
My eyes light up with the light f day,
And sparkle like the dew,
My senses feel the sunshine,
As it starts the day anew.


The flowers smile at me,
The birds,they call my name.
They wonder what i'm doing there.
And from where on earth I came.
They wonder what I'm upto,
Standing all alone,
They wonder where I'm off to,
But they smile all the same.

They care not if i scream and shout,
And begin to stomp around.
Whether I lose all sense of control,
And roll about on the ground.
I know that before there smiling faces,
I can be as I was meant to be,
Free!Free!Free!

18/01/2003

hello.....
Have absolutely no idea what to write.. my end sems finally kicked off .. what a paper! have hopefully done well.. have written lots of crap over the past year.. so shall post it till i can think of what to do with this page :)

Tomorows my dad's birthday.. Happy Birthday Papa! hope you have a wonderful day...

FREE

I stand alone atop a hill,
Alone as I can be,
Watching the sun rise above,
Its home beneath the sea.
My eyes light up with the light f day,
And sparkle like the dew,
My senses feel the sunshine,
As it starts the day anew.


The flowers smile at me,
The birds,they call my name.
They wonder what i'm doing there.
And from where on earth I came.
They wonder what I'm upto,
Standing all alone,
They wonder where I'm off to,
But they smile all the same.

They care not if i scream and shout,
And begin to stomp around.
Whether I lose all sense of control,
And roll about on the ground.
I know that before there smiling faces,
I can be as I was meant to be,
Free!Free!Free!

18/01/2003