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Friday, June 25, 2004
Thursday, June 24, 2004
live journal
not working.. so shall post this here
vaise this is my sad wierded (copyright dixi) blog
i write crap here.. for myself
haan.. had the most amazing barbecue dinner.. ate 5 steaks.. am feeling so
fulfilled.. also the bloody germany loss made me remember basky inter iit
i believe that the most powerful emotion i have ever experienced has been
at these meets.. and i want to complete the cycle with joy being added to
the list...
the all blacks rule .. iit bombays basky team shall also be just that damn
good one day..
yes it shall
vaise this is my sad wierded (copyright dixi) blog
i write crap here.. for myself
haan.. had the most amazing barbecue dinner.. ate 5 steaks.. am feeling so
fulfilled.. also the bloody germany loss made me remember basky inter iit
i believe that the most powerful emotion i have ever experienced has been
at these meets.. and i want to complete the cycle with joy being added to
the list...
the all blacks rule .. iit bombays basky team shall also be just that damn
good one day..
yes it shall
please ignore
why can i not make up my mind.
yes it is important enough to ponder over
and maybe i should..
logic.. one path.. could be taken.. done and dusted
whatever else (which is most of me) .. another .. which i know i shall
take
that one mistake could cost you so dear.. or was it a mistake at all..
just utterances of a confused mind
please to ignore
yes it is important enough to ponder over
and maybe i should..
logic.. one path.. could be taken.. done and dusted
whatever else (which is most of me) .. another .. which i know i shall
take
that one mistake could cost you so dear.. or was it a mistake at all..
just utterances of a confused mind
please to ignore
Despair
You return oh cloud of doubt
and bring with you shadows
that i long left behind
as you hang me at the gallows
Not one bright ray can i find
the joy i once knew,
from the clarity of my mind
lies slain, twisted askew
in a pool of its own blood
The blood
Red, in its brightness
wrought bt my clarity of thought
and now red in death
dead forever, to count for nought
tell me, please do,
if i shall forever wear
this dirty dingy shroud
of utter and total despair
and bring with you shadows
that i long left behind
as you hang me at the gallows
Not one bright ray can i find
the joy i once knew,
from the clarity of my mind
lies slain, twisted askew
in a pool of its own blood
The blood
Red, in its brightness
wrought bt my clarity of thought
and now red in death
dead forever, to count for nought
tell me, please do,
if i shall forever wear
this dirty dingy shroud
of utter and total despair
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
anna janki..
janki.. pronounced junky.. what a junky name i say.
i like indian names.. they have meaning. I am indestructable person u know.
dont know why i wrote that just did
janki.. pronounced junky.. what a junky name i say.
i like indian names.. they have meaning. I am indestructable person u know.
dont know why i wrote that just did
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Metallica (flexfax)
he does not blog.. i was too lazy to put description.. this is by Dopu
It was out of this fucking world!! :D, most amazing thing ever. Had a
total blast. So here is full narration
The concert was hapenning at Munich Olympic stadium, which itself is a
work of art. Looks amazing and the place around it is also beautiful with
a manmade lake around as well. So neways, we started off for the place
very early, thinking we'll have fight to get good places etc (we
unfortunately couldnt get standing places...were sold out, so Got stadium
seats) We had seat no's, but werent really sure if junta would follow
seating arrangements. We reached around 1.30....concert was supposed to
start at 5.30. The place is huuuuge! Apart frm the stadium there are lots
of other things...coz obv they had the olympics here , hence they have
hazaar diff sports facilities. so we took one chakkar of the stadium
,trying to figure out which gate we needed to enter from. Anyways found
out that they werent letting ppl in until 4.30. SO then we went n sat near
the lake n were just chilling all the way till 4.30. Finally they started
letting ppl in at 4.30, and surprise surprise, inspite of all the beer/pot
ppl were consuming continuously, it was most peaceful to get in, and this
for a Metallica concert. No maara maari etc. Unfortunately they didnt
lemme take my camera inside :(, but luckily saxy managed to smuggle his
one in, so he has snaps of concert. So our seats were the best in the
seating category. We were seated with the stage right in front, tho a bit
far off :(, but still , was amazing view.
There were 2 opening acts. the fast was some band called Lost Prophets.
Were decent, better than most of our local bands, and had a couple of nice
originals...well they played only originals ofcourse. Then ofcourse was
the circus act 'SlipKnot' . I cannot in anyway appreciate their kind of
music. But they are quite funny to watch performing. What with some 12
bandmembers, with masks and 3 drummers, one of whom in between kept taking
his drum stick and trying to murder his drum set by whacking it as hard as
he could on the side metal frame :D
Neways finally after a lot of waiting it was time for Tallica to
perform. The crowd was going crazy with anticipation. Generally they
started cheering and screaming anytime any technician came onto stage to
do soundchek type things. And then finally they got on stage n everyone
went wild. ...unfortunately I dont remember the order in which they played
the songs...but here is mostly the complete setlist.
1) Harvester of Sorrow
So they opened with this song, and kicked ass. Was awesome...as were
all the other songs :). Crowd warmed up nicely after this one. Im also not
mentioning 2 St anger songs they played :D, but heck I didnt care, the
rest was mind blowing
2) Fuel
So hetfield was generally chatting with crowd n then goes...so....Gimme
Fuel Gimme....!! and starts off the song...ok now im ditching commenting
on songs coz ill just keep saying they were awesome.
3) Memory Remains
4) Master of Puppets
This ofcourse was just brilliant. Was very glad they played quite a bit
of their older stuff.
5) Enter Sandman
6) Sad but True
8) Nothing Else Matters
All 3 songs frm Black album were amazing. The crowd went crazy with
Enter Sandman. Nothing else matters was also brilliant, everyone lit their
cigarette lighters(no flashing cell fones tho :D ) n general everyone in
whole arena swaying with hands in the air etc.
9) One
'One' was awesome!! They did the whole intro part even better than in
the song. With sound of gunfire and soldier talk etc, and crazy
pyrotechnics for the explosions in the intro of the song....when that
ended, the stage was completely filled with smoke...n suddenly there was
this bright white light at the back of the stage coming through all the
smoke and you could see the silhouette of Kirk with his guitar. Looked
amazing.
10) Damage INC
Was pleasantly surprised by this song. Isnt normally on Metallica
setlists. BUt Master of Puppets is one of my most fav albums, So I was
most thrilled. Again, was wonderfully done.
11) Creeping Death
12) For Whom The Bell Tolls
13) Fade to Black
All amazing songs, and all sounded great. Was headbanging all
throughout :).
14) Seek and Destroy
And this was their last song. I went crazy when Hetfield said ..."so has
anyone here heard of an album of ours called Kill Em All" :DD....was
actually hoping for The Four Horsemen, as they had played it at Donnington
Fest, but heck Seek and Destroy was amazing as well.
So that was the whole thing...Might have missed a couple of songs.
Throughout the whole concert there were just one thing that you keep
saying to yourself, Kirk Hammet, Lars Ulrich and James Hetfield are Gods.
You can hate St Anger as much as you want, but it still dosent take
anything away frm them. Seeing them live with closeups of Kirk guitaring,
on the Big Screen, make you realise how god a guitarist he is. Then there
was a special drum cam on Lars drumset, which was actually vibrating about
as he went crazy behind the drums. Looked awesome. Hetfield ofcourse
kicked ass. Their monkey bassist did a good job, just that I think noone
can ever replace Cliff Burton, 'The late great bass monster' as they
affectionately call him.
It was out of this fucking world!! :D, most amazing thing ever. Had a
total blast. So here is full narration
The concert was hapenning at Munich Olympic stadium, which itself is a
work of art. Looks amazing and the place around it is also beautiful with
a manmade lake around as well. So neways, we started off for the place
very early, thinking we'll have fight to get good places etc (we
unfortunately couldnt get standing places...were sold out, so Got stadium
seats) We had seat no's, but werent really sure if junta would follow
seating arrangements. We reached around 1.30....concert was supposed to
start at 5.30. The place is huuuuge! Apart frm the stadium there are lots
of other things...coz obv they had the olympics here , hence they have
hazaar diff sports facilities. so we took one chakkar of the stadium
,trying to figure out which gate we needed to enter from. Anyways found
out that they werent letting ppl in until 4.30. SO then we went n sat near
the lake n were just chilling all the way till 4.30. Finally they started
letting ppl in at 4.30, and surprise surprise, inspite of all the beer/pot
ppl were consuming continuously, it was most peaceful to get in, and this
for a Metallica concert. No maara maari etc. Unfortunately they didnt
lemme take my camera inside :(, but luckily saxy managed to smuggle his
one in, so he has snaps of concert. So our seats were the best in the
seating category. We were seated with the stage right in front, tho a bit
far off :(, but still , was amazing view.
There were 2 opening acts. the fast was some band called Lost Prophets.
Were decent, better than most of our local bands, and had a couple of nice
originals...well they played only originals ofcourse. Then ofcourse was
the circus act 'SlipKnot' . I cannot in anyway appreciate their kind of
music. But they are quite funny to watch performing. What with some 12
bandmembers, with masks and 3 drummers, one of whom in between kept taking
his drum stick and trying to murder his drum set by whacking it as hard as
he could on the side metal frame :D
Neways finally after a lot of waiting it was time for Tallica to
perform. The crowd was going crazy with anticipation. Generally they
started cheering and screaming anytime any technician came onto stage to
do soundchek type things. And then finally they got on stage n everyone
went wild. ...unfortunately I dont remember the order in which they played
the songs...but here is mostly the complete setlist.
1) Harvester of Sorrow
So they opened with this song, and kicked ass. Was awesome...as were
all the other songs :). Crowd warmed up nicely after this one. Im also not
mentioning 2 St anger songs they played :D, but heck I didnt care, the
rest was mind blowing
2) Fuel
So hetfield was generally chatting with crowd n then goes...so....Gimme
Fuel Gimme....!! and starts off the song...ok now im ditching commenting
on songs coz ill just keep saying they were awesome.
3) Memory Remains
4) Master of Puppets
This ofcourse was just brilliant. Was very glad they played quite a bit
of their older stuff.
5) Enter Sandman
6) Sad but True
8) Nothing Else Matters
All 3 songs frm Black album were amazing. The crowd went crazy with
Enter Sandman. Nothing else matters was also brilliant, everyone lit their
cigarette lighters(no flashing cell fones tho :D ) n general everyone in
whole arena swaying with hands in the air etc.
9) One
'One' was awesome!! They did the whole intro part even better than in
the song. With sound of gunfire and soldier talk etc, and crazy
pyrotechnics for the explosions in the intro of the song....when that
ended, the stage was completely filled with smoke...n suddenly there was
this bright white light at the back of the stage coming through all the
smoke and you could see the silhouette of Kirk with his guitar. Looked
amazing.
10) Damage INC
Was pleasantly surprised by this song. Isnt normally on Metallica
setlists. BUt Master of Puppets is one of my most fav albums, So I was
most thrilled. Again, was wonderfully done.
11) Creeping Death
12) For Whom The Bell Tolls
13) Fade to Black
All amazing songs, and all sounded great. Was headbanging all
throughout :).
14) Seek and Destroy
And this was their last song. I went crazy when Hetfield said ..."so has
anyone here heard of an album of ours called Kill Em All" :DD....was
actually hoping for The Four Horsemen, as they had played it at Donnington
Fest, but heck Seek and Destroy was amazing as well.
So that was the whole thing...Might have missed a couple of songs.
Throughout the whole concert there were just one thing that you keep
saying to yourself, Kirk Hammet, Lars Ulrich and James Hetfield are Gods.
You can hate St Anger as much as you want, but it still dosent take
anything away frm them. Seeing them live with closeups of Kirk guitaring,
on the Big Screen, make you realise how god a guitarist he is. Then there
was a special drum cam on Lars drumset, which was actually vibrating about
as he went crazy behind the drums. Looked awesome. Hetfield ofcourse
kicked ass. Their monkey bassist did a good job, just that I think noone
can ever replace Cliff Burton, 'The late great bass monster' as they
affectionately call him.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
writing
is a great release. and i am good at houework.. nice housewife i would
make :)
i spent 3 hours sewing my torn bags together.. something which i have
never had much success at. it was more a matter of saving 15 euros and not
wasting 600 rupees.. bags ka cost etc.
but it was done:) and i shall carry big bag on trek :D or bergsteigen in
german :P
also wrte stuff in written diary whic i have resorted to in the total
absence of a comp.. more or less wrote down a few unmentionable facts
about people i love.. for my eyes only though. for my eyes alone.. i think
at around 2 am i wrote a poem also.. maybe two. shall go back and check.
am not sure anymore.
make :)
i spent 3 hours sewing my torn bags together.. something which i have
never had much success at. it was more a matter of saving 15 euros and not
wasting 600 rupees.. bags ka cost etc.
but it was done:) and i shall carry big bag on trek :D or bergsteigen in
german :P
also wrte stuff in written diary whic i have resorted to in the total
absence of a comp.. more or less wrote down a few unmentionable facts
about people i love.. for my eyes only though. for my eyes alone.. i think
at around 2 am i wrote a poem also.. maybe two. shall go back and check.
am not sure anymore.
Monday, June 07, 2004
mail blog
my first.
in germany.. these are my contact details
Akshay Saxena
Am Schäferanger 15, Zimmer 121
Oberschleißheim, 85764
ph: 0049-174-4512064
office (12:30am to 9:30 pm ist) 0049-89-289-15669
no upsurges of emotion right now.. shall blog later
in germany.. these are my contact details
Akshay Saxena
Am Schäferanger 15, Zimmer 121
Oberschleißheim, 85764
ph: 0049-174-4512064
office (12:30am to 9:30 pm ist) 0049-89-289-15669
no upsurges of emotion right now.. shall blog later
Saturday, June 05, 2004
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
the euphoria dies
quickly, suddenly
revealing to you
unblemished skies
that haunt you
for in their clarity
you begin to see
the emptiness that belies
your very existence here
quickly, suddenly
revealing to you
unblemished skies
that haunt you
for in their clarity
you begin to see
the emptiness that belies
your very existence here
am blogging because i'm bored..
am finding out what being lukkha because of running simulations means. also, am beginning to understand why supercomputers are needed.. rather beginning to appreciate should i say.
ah.. no thoughts flowing
ditch.. shall check if the damn things finished
am finding out what being lukkha because of running simulations means. also, am beginning to understand why supercomputers are needed.. rather beginning to appreciate should i say.
ah.. no thoughts flowing
ditch.. shall check if the damn things finished
